leaves on the seine.

i am happy.
as much as im without love,
im still happy.
because im blessed with the best kind of friends God could ever present me with.
because these friends are a bundle of fun, laughter and much much more.
i can never thank each and everyone of them enough.
and yet, something still isnt right.
y'know... the final jigsaw.
it's so elusive.
i deeply yearn for it.
but, at what cost?
and what exactly is this jigsaw that im searching high and low for?
i guess no one gets everything.
why do i get to enjoy close friendships at the expense of other friends?
i dn't like it this way.
is it really impossible?

reconcile
v. rec·on·ciled, rec·on·cil·ing, rec·on·ciles v. tr.

1.To reestablish a close relationship between.
2.To settle or resolve.
3.To bring (oneself) to accept: He finally reconciled himself to the change in management.

and friends are friends forever, if the Lord's the lord of them.

it keeps the fire burning, the effort from dying..
from giving up.

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